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End of the year; letting it go

I feel like I “should” write a long-winded end-of-year post… but I’m not feeling it. This year has been magnificent, tragic, spectacular and trying… all in equal measures.  I definitely will not forget what I have learned, and will take advantage of the opportunities the end of the year is offering me.

I am looking forward to 2014, I hope it embraces the great parts of 2013 and leaves behind the sad parts.

As this song says, I am slowly learning to truly “let it go”:

It’s funny how some distance
Makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me
Can’t get to me at all

It’s time to see what I can do
To test the limits and break through
No right, no wrong, no rules for me,
I’m free!

I think I’m getting better at this. Things still nag at me.  I worry way too much about what people I don’t really know, and who don’t really know me, think. I realize now that it really doesn’t matter.  I need to free myself of this. It’s a work in progress, but it is progressing.

Let it go, let it go
Turn my back and slam the door
And here I stand
And here I’ll stay
in the light of day
The cold never bothered me anyway.

Someday, I don’t think the metaphorical cold (of life, of expectations, of chance and circumstance) will bother me. I hope that day comes soon. It should.

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3 thoughts on “End of the year; letting it go

  1. body image hope says:

    I LOVE that song! It’s been my motto all of December. Whoever wrote that song was absolutely brilliant. they must’ve had some experience of their own that led them to write the song because it perfectly describes being chained up by a label, an addiction, a stigmatized disorder, or even being in the closet and afraid to come out — and learning to be one’s own person in spite of wanting to hide so much.

    What a wonderful end of year choice for a year filled with struggles and freedom. My best to you and Cassius this year and congrats on the new job!

    • The songwriters behind it are a husband and wife team, and the husband worked on the Book of Mormon musical. But I think the wife is responsible for lyrics. I agree, love the song and its message.

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